Very Pissed Off
Mood:  down
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I am very pissed today. So I made this journal thing so everyone can read what the fuck is so fucked up all the time. I got alot of shit wrong in my life, espically with my disfunctional family that I have. Why did god put me here? I don't know but he made a mistake. My brother gets trated so much better than me and he is 14 yrs. old... thats so unfair. he has all f's and he can still do whatever. I asked my mom to barrow the digital camera yesterday and take it to the bowling ally and she said no. but here is my brother, taking it to his friends house and my mom didnt care. i wanted to beat the living piss out of her. yeah the bitch has a broken foot and i have been here everyday running her around paying her bills doing her laundry and cleaning her house. my brother dosent do shit. either does my dad beacuse his ass is having an affair. i still get treated like shit and i told her i aint doing nothing for her any more. fuck that shit. that bitch cant even put insurace on a car for me. i am posta start school on monday and graduate in june but i am not going to be able to because i have no way there. so no diploma for me. and my brother les is my half brother, i live with my mom and my step dad. they all are disfuctional. i swear i am the only one normal. i do everything. i am so loyal and then get shit on like i am nothing. i am sick of being treated like shit. then my mom tryed to tell me she got her camera back from les in which she didnt. she lies to me. she owes me 30.00 since december 27th and promised to pay me back that friday. she never did. she promised to take me to bingo on my birthday. she never did. then last tuesday she promised to take me on weds night. she never did, but her and my dad gave my brother 10.00 to go to a rock concrt in detroit and he is fucking 14 years old. of course i blew up on them because she owes me cash and she fucking lied to me. then on christmas, she gave me a shitty pendant to put on a chain and i dont have one and in the box it said she was going to get me a necklace in feb. yeah fucking right. i wont be getting shit. i asked for a digital camera for x-mas and my mom gets it. i didnt get anything i wanted. shit, i still have shoes that are almost a year old and they got my brother shoes for school and they got fucked up and they bought him new ones. where are myne??? why dont they get me clothes??? they didnt even get me anything for my birthday. i was a mistake@@@@@@@@@@ then i finally meet my real dad last year in july and he treats me better than my mom. there a religious and caring family. im here in a fucked up house. i just wish that i would get shot in the head. seriousley. im sick of not having anything. im sick of doing things for everyone and never getting nothing back. im sick of living.... and i could go on and on and on about what my mom has done to me but im pissed at the face that shes a bitch and cant do anything for anyone but her self. i will never have a car, and never have anything so shoot me and there will be one less person in my family, in my town and in this fucked up world.......